I was born a third generation Seventh-day Adventist to Jamaican immigrants to Canada. While growing up, the Seventh-day Adventist
culture was as much a part of me as my family's Jamaican heritage. Our family, in many ways, could have been the poster family for The Adventist Home (an SDA Ellen White
publication). Every morning our family gathered together to pray, sing a hymn, and read the morning devotion, which was always written by Ellen White or possibly another SDA leader. My
father or mother would then take my brother, sister and me to our Adventist school, which was several miles away. My parents paid dearly for our tuition but were pleased with the education we
received as we always tested well in meeting the government standards. When we returned home, at some point in the early evening, we would have family worship again. The evening family
worship was longer and usually consisted of 2 hymns, prayer, and the studying of the "quarterly" (lesson plans) provided by the Seventh-day Adventist Church.
I grew up with most of my friends being SDA at school and my local neighborhood friends being "secular" ones. My parents always taught us that we were to be an example to them, which in many
cases meant not being able to play with them on Sabbath. Most people could not understand why we went to church on Saturday and we could not understand why most people did not. Every
Sabbath was a reminder that we were different than the others and had "the truth" while others did not. Because of all the time spent in family worship and the study of Seventh-day Adventist
materials, we were very well versed in SDA doctrine; even as a youngster I could and would recite large passages that reflected my belief in the Sabbath and Seventh-day Adventism. All this
activity of study, attending church and SDA schools gave me a feeling of pleasing and winning favor with God because I was following His laws while others were not. Yet as young as the age of
9, I sensed that this was not enough and that no matter how much favor I may have earned with God, it probably was not enough to get me into heaven. I begged my parents to allow me to baptized
and responded to altar calls and various calls from the pulpit to buy the latest SDA materials.
As I entered my teenage years, I began to become more aware of myself as a sinner and in need of God. I continued to do all the "right"
things—eating a vegetarian diet, attending an SDA academy, going to church on Sabbath, being baptized, reading only books published by
the SDA church, etc.—but somehow, the more I tried to be good and acceptable to God the more I felt unworthy and dirty and
unlovable. I knew that God loved me as was evidenced by Jesus dying on the cross for me, but to me that love came with a huge price tag that I could never seem to fill. I consciously
always thought that if my good deeds outweighed my bad deeds and if I asked for forgiveness every night before going to bed that God would let me into heaven. I didn't understand what Jesus'
death on the cross meant, other than it was an example of God's love and that I should try to live as sinless a life as Jesus did. I tried to be sinless, but as anyone who knows me (especially
in my younger years) knows, I failed miserably at it. At times I pretty well gave up on the possibility of ever being able to please God no matter how hard I tried.
I was always taught that "Sunday keepers," especially Catholics, were the woman in scarlet or the Beast or Babylon and that one day everyone would have to become Seventh-day Adventist or perish in
Hell. It was an insult to me when someone who was not SDA spoke of God because in my mind they couldn't possibly know God if they didn't keep His Sabbath. So while I had a certain smug
feeling of access to God that others did not, I lived in terror that my good deeds might not outweigh the bad. I feared the end times and what the result of "The Investigative Judgment" (an SDA
heresy) would mean for me. During this time I was reading a lot of books on cults and world religions. Seventh-day Adventism would turn up in about one third to one half of them. Most of
the books did not label the church as a cult but would discuss the heretical and heterodox positions of the church. In reading through these books, I thought I was able to explain away many of
the arguments posed by the authors and, quite frankly, the gospel that was presented in these books did not pierce the veil that was over my eyes.
While attending university, I began to listen to Christian radio. The local radio station carried an SDA program as well as some other
programs that I found interesting, including a program where people could call in and have their Bible questions answered. Again, I had many moments of feeling smug that although the on-air
personality was well versed in the Bible, he did not have the knowledge that I did. In fact, I pretty well could answer most of the questions that were asked off the top of my head because of
all the years of instruction I had received. One day it was announced that there would be a debate between a Catholic apologist and an outspoken Protestant. I went excitedly to the debate
and, of course, rooted for the Protestant position but hoped that all present there at the debate would come to know the Seventh-day Adventist truth.
During the debate, I picked up a newsletter and began subscribing to The Berean Call, which the Protestant debater was a contributing writer to. I was surprised to see a series of
tapes entitled "Foundations of Adventism" offered. The brief description spoke of a former Adventist minister who lovingly critiques the SDA Church. At this point in my life, I was aware
of flaws in the Adventist Church, such as scandals in the administration, but I believed the only true church was the SDA Church, and I could not conceive of how any one could leave. I bought
the tapes with the intention of hearing what my "wayward brother" had to say but also with the intent of exposing flaws and perhaps even winning him back to The Church, which certainly would bring me
favor in the eyes of God.
As I listened to the tapes presented by Pastor Mark Martin, his wife Leslie and guests, I began to have the foundation of Adventism (Ellen White) exposed. More importantly, though, the truth
of the Gospel became unveiled before my eyes. For any of you who may have heard these messages, you will know what I'm talking about when I say there is too much information for me to share
here in my testimony. For those of you who are reading this but have never heard this series of messages, I implore you to listen to them. You can hear them directly online at Ex-Adventist Outreach. I learned a lot but even more so by studying and hearing the word of God. As I
studied, I began to feel the love of Christ and feel His cleansing power and the relief and joy of no longer being spiritually blind, as the veil lifted and showed me the glory of God.
As I stated earlier, I learned so much from Pastor Mark Martin's "Foundations of Adventism" messages, but here are the most important things I learned:
1. The SDA Church was founded upon a gross misinterpretation of scripture, in particular, the belief that Jesus would return in 1844. Rather
than accept the scriptures that clearly indicate that no man knows the time of Christ's return (Luke 12: 40), the SDA Church followed the visions and explanations of Ellen G. White. Mrs. White
proliferated the SDA doctrine of the Investigative Judgment as well as a number of other falsehoods and became the cornerstone of Adventism. There is much that can be said about Ellen G. White and
her writings, but I'll summarize with this: much of her writing was plagiarized and contradicts the Bible.
2. I learned to accept Jesus as my Sabbath rest (Colossians 2:16-17; Hebrews 3 & 4). Jesus fulfilled all the requirements of the
law; He is the Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world (John 1:29). I learned that there is nothing that I can do to earn my salvation; it is a gift provided to me through accepting
Jesus and what He did for me on the cross (Ephesians 2:7-8; Romans 3:10). I learned that my salvation is secure in Christ and that He paid the price for me once and for all, and I am sealed by
the Holy Spirit (Romans 8:1; John 19:30; Ephesians 1:13 & 4:30).
3. I learned the law was a tutor and it has no ruling over us (Galatians 3, 4 & 5—pay close attention to Galatians 3:26-4:7 while
reading all 3 chapters prayerfully). Also, the Sabbath is only a type of Christ (Colossians 2:16-17 and Hebrews 4:8-11).
There is so much more I could share with you, but let me end by saying this: My salvation is determined by what Christ did and not by anything I can do. Today I KNOW that I
am saved and am God's child. All those hymns I have sung throughout my life now finally mean something. I understand about grace, forgiveness and the hope that lies in my LORD.
My life is complete today in Christ. I go through all the struggles that any other human goes through. I'm still flawed and far from perfect. I still bear the consequences of my
actions. I still fall, but I have Jesus there to lift me up. Today I can rest in Jesus and know that I have eternal life, which cannot be taken away by any church or their doctrines
To the Seventh-day Adventist, I say: Study God's word, and investigate the roots of your church (there is a wealth of resources at the Life Assurance Ministries, Truth or Fables, and Non-EGW Web
sites). Know that you can have eternal life based on what Jesus did and not by what you do. It is ALL about Christ's righteousness.
Another version of my testimony can be seen on YouTube. You can also see videos I have made as an outreach to SDAs on
YouTube under the username JesusIsEnough777.
Because of Calvary,